Before deciding to test for Sandan, I had to ask myself some important questions about testing and rank. First and foremost, to me, obtaining the rank of Sandan inherently means taking on additional responsibility. This responsibility includes not only improving my Aikido technique but the complimentary responsibilities of focused attention and observation to identify how I can best serve Sensei, my fellow Aikidoka and the dojo in general by being an example for Kohai. Sensei Koshiyama is my example of egoless service to the dojo; he not only emphasizes the importance of sincere giving but embodies it.

Service to the dojo can come in a variety of forms. Inherent in rank is the responsibility to observe what needs to be done and to perform the task needing attention regardless of how menial the task may seem or what rank you may have achieved. The most basic form of service can be as simple as cleaning the dojo. Having a Sensei who will clean the bathroom if no student beats him to the job is one example of egoless service.

Another form of service then, as exemplified by Sensei, is being an example to the other students. As a senior student, I find that just as I observe Sensei, other students are observing what I say, what I do and how I express myself both on and off the mat. Additionally, just as I recognize that no task is too menial for Sensei, other Aikidoka will be observing what I choose to do or not to do.

Fulfilling my teaching obligations is yet another way to serve the dojo and assist Sensei Koshiyama. Effective teaching is an important skill that, just like technique, takes time, focus and attention. I have seen very effective teachers and am increasingly impressed with their skills; a master teacher is invaluable. As I progress as a teacher, I try to be open to instruction and to practice new techniques the way they are demonstrated trusting that the Sensei's curriculum is deliberate.

As I reflect on the time I have spent in Aikido, I realize that I have obtained this level through a great deal of hard work, not just my own but the hard work of a shockingly large number of people. My old exam tapes include dozens and dozens of people who no longer train but who have each helped me progress in some way. I feel a sense of responsibility, as well as gratitude, to each of them for helping me and keeping me on the path of Aikido all these years. Another way to serve the dojo is to help the new students learn the physical and spiritual aspects of Aikido so that one day they too can experience the joy that I have found in practicing Aikido.

This essay is humbly dedicated to my partner on and off the mat, Diana, without whom I undoubtedly would not be where I am today.